I'm glad you're feeling better, and I hope you can can continue to improve as both a person and a musician from this experience! If you ever feel unsupported or left out, just let somebody know--that's the spirit of community (and having moments like you did--while your retaliation may have been a bit harsh in hindsight--is perfectly normal! It happens to the best of us, so if you ever look back on it and regret it, just think of it as a learning experience :) )
Happy BotBurf! I know the last year was a bit of a heckstorm for you, and I think for everyone, but even within that you found yourself able to improve, which even shows in your music. I know it's not your birthday, but I at least hot you have a heccin' good BotBurf.