homskillet, I don't fear success nor do I worry about winning, since I have no reason to do such things. I am just very self-critical of stuff I create, probably a little too self-critical for my own sanity. I guess I have some sort of obsession with comparing my own stuff with other peoples' works, and then bashing my own creations for not having the same musical and technical level as the more experienced and talented musicians. I feel that my music is just not up to par even though I have only composed one "good" original and a few covers so far. I just want to deliever quality stuff but can never seem to do so due to my lack of experience with creating music and for some reason that makes me hate my own works. My guess, for the reasoning behind this, is that I am just insane.
My insanity does not stop me from composing though, it just stops me from enjoying my own works as much. I do still enjoy the making of it and I will definitely keep doing this for as long as I find it enjoyable.
Also, thank you for your enouraging words. :) (I liked your song, it was very athmospheric and chill. It might not be the most complicated piece of music ever created but it was enjoyable and a great listen!)
Oooooo..... Thanks Zath!
I am glad you liked it. Incase you were wondering it was composed in E natural minor, I think.
It started out as a test for my scale program, just to see if it was working as intented and this is song is what happened after a few days of messing around with the scale.
(Posts of doom! I just like making these long posts I guess. xD)