here's how it all happened...
around the age of 12, I actively got into listening to music. before this time, I grew up on a passive diet of radio R&B and rap, and didn't really care for it but kinda figured that was all there was to music. then I started to play some older games like Earthbound and such, and noticed, "woah the music here is enjoyable to listen to, and so different!" from then on, my life was changed.
I rediscovered things like Jet Set Radio Future's soundtrack, which I passively enjoyed a lot as a kid, and even more as someone actively listening to it. I found songs I liked in the whole YTPMV scene that brought me deeper into a game music rabbithole, where I found out about famitracker.
I joined famitracker forums sometime in 2010 and made a lot of terrible music for two years before joining botb. I remember jrlepage's song "show me a moose" blew me away and made me start using botb because I was like, wtf if he can do this in an hour I can find a way too!! (though apparently I joined before then?)
then I went on botb constantly for like, two years, and kind of discovered my musical sense... and in this place I found the first community I ever actually grew attached to. I made friends, enemies, did a lot of stupid shit, and sorta fulfilled my goal to use the site as a tool for improvement. some of my best music is on here!
this site, and the people in it, made my life in those two years a lot of fun, and definitely helped me escape my "lol random edgelord 4channer" phase. because before then I was all about troll hitler rape rape pedophilia murder humor and I was kind of obnoxious and intolerable. totally not chill haha, and sorry you had to deal with that
sorry for stealing songs, sorry for being an edgy troll, but you guys calling me out on these things helped me become a way more chill and collected guy now. also thanks kf for some musicial advice you gave me back then, because it did shape my musical awareness. and you still show me some amazing music
the most important era in my botb life was actually as I began using the site way less in 2014. through a series of events, me kind of stepping out of the community made me latch on to only a few people that I found valuable. sorta like falling off a cliff but grabbing all the rocks you can on the way down haha
my best friends who I met back then and kept around on skype... these guys are still my best buddies today.
that's gyms, golgi, and jet, the closest friend trio. i met them individually at first, but through multiple group chats, starting off with some official botb one i believe, we wound up forming a little group out of us, and it's been over three years of friendship, hanging out, emotional support, and goodness since. these are my best friends, and if I never went on botb, I never would have met them. therefore, I never would have became who I am today.
if I never met gyms, wtf I probably would've straight up quit music. he's literally The Reason HYPERMIX, my sort of musical resurgence, exists. all because of some chord presets he sent me for ableton. through the past two years he's taught me at least 70% of what I know about music, and helped me through a lot of personal emotional bad spots, and I've been there for him too. important important guy
but even golgi and jet fed my mind with a lot of musical realizations and stuff to listen to, along with philosophies and perspectives that I really needed to acquire at some point. it's crazy how much this single group, us brobroys, me, golgi, jet, gyms, (moot, uuni), have enhanced my life and my own self.
~the present day~
botb still seems to play some role in my life, even though I don't use the site much nowadays. honestly, I keep a really small circle of online friends. like, six people or something. and they're all from botb, or at least stemmed from that.
through gyms last year, I met another important friend of mine that I became actual buddies with later that year, so I just gotta mention him
it is razerek, who is definitely one of my high level close friends right now. the amount of musical potential he has is insane and I know one day he's going to tap into it and probably cause World War III. but he'll also end World War III. probably the same day. he's such a cool guy, and got me into one of my most prevalent modern interests, cubing. that's like, solving rubik's cubes really fast lol. nutshell, he's colored this year a better hue for me, our daily calls are always a ton of fun. don't count this guy out, he's a great.
so yeah, without all these close buddies, wtf my life would be so different, and probably not in a good way. as I am about to go to college and live on campus in less than two months, I really reflect on the fact that I wouldn't be nearly as ready and confident in myself without these friends.
I could go on forever about these buddies, botb, and how my life was changed, but yeah that'd be really long and redundant and nobody would read it haha but thanks for reading this anyway! I'm glad a lot of members here have had similar positive effects from this site, meeting great friends and becoming better musicians and people.
it's so great to have met these great pals who augmented the course of my life in such major ways, despite such minor beginnings. nothing could diminish the importance of their existence
botb's good people and the music from it continue to inspire me even though it's easy after all this time to say, "eh botb ain't all that", and get all spiteful. but it is something, and something quite important. long live puke, long live botb, and I hope it keeps giving people good times forever